StuffAnother thing that gets to me every now and then is this; loneliness. I've grown up enjoying the company of only myself, and sometimes my sister. Funnily I've always thought of myself as the dependent type, but this may be because I am afraid to make a mistake so I seek assistance frequently. Nowadays I think being lonely makes me depressed. Not to be taken in the wrong way, I've made so many amazing friends and admittedly, I've become more open and expressive of my own feelings. I guess the easiest way to sum up my feelings without dodgy sentences would be this: I've always thought I was ugly. It bothers me a lot now. I dismiss any encouragement or compliments because I only receive them from friends and family, which makes them seem biased. I want to be in a relationship with someone who will like me for who I am. I find it hard to believe guys like this actually exist. I'd never take any extreme to dramatically change the way I look because then I just wouldn't be myself. I just want to be myself.
Man, this isn't something I'd be writing about in a journal, but I'm not expecting any help for this type of thing either; it seems like something I have to resolve by myself because I wouldn't know what to think of encouragement. I know beggars can't be choosers, but I can't help but have my own preferences; I'm naturally very picky, but I try not to be fickle.
I don't believe in fate, I don't believe that there is someone out there for everybody, it's illogical...it's irrational.
I want to put that aside...I plan on putting up a more organized journal CSS, one that is simple. I am not sure when you should expect it.
What a pointless journal, hopefully by my next update I'll be in a better mood, sorry.
edit; I really appreciate everyone's concerns, thank you so much. It does make me feel better. I guess I ought to post more journals in the future when I'm confronted with such problems.
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Nah nah I kid. ilu and your art <3
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There aren't enough Irish people in computer games! Too many people from bloody superpower countries!
Hmm...
*reprograms Iron Tagar with Irishness*
That's better >:3 No more of this 'real Soviet damage' rubbish.
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